Sound Of Worship
When I was 13 years old in secondary school I got accused of wrecking my neighbor’s marriage. This were rumors that were apparently started by our neighbors. I do not know why they did that, but at that time I had not even had my first boyfriend and I literally did not know anything about boys. So you can imagine the trauma of being related to a married man.
Of course I’ve always been an outspoken, va-va-voom, go-getter kind of child and I guess that character is what made the allegations believable.
The lady would insult me so bad that it got out of hand and she started insulting my mom. My mom was sick at the time struggling with diabetes. I remember one day my mom was being taken to the hospital and after the car left that woman stood on the fence with one of our neighbors and faced me and shouted 'kare wa shwa ke AIDS, ha a swe,o tlogela bana ba gagwe ba re thubela malapa' meaning 'she is dying of AIDS; let her die, it serves her right for letting her children break our marriages’.
By that time I was in High school. I was leaving a life of embarrassment and shame and I hide in a cacoon. That vibrant little girl died in the inside of me because of all this accusations. By that time the whole village knew about me. It was a daily thing for us to go to the police to report the abuse. It got to a point where the lady brought her younger brother to come and harass me and my mom.I was a laughing stock, a shame and daily living in fear and trauma.
I remember one day I was walking home from school and one of the village rascals shouted at me 'heela wena lebelete ke wena,o tsaya gore ke bokwete go thubela batho lapa,o tla swa ka bonana' meaning' hey you whore,do you think it's prestige to break people's marriages,may you die young'. In fact I was now used to it because the lady and her brother will ritually pass by my yard and scream to me 'you will die young'. (We ended up nicknaming the guy 'you will die young')
In fact it's my mom that died after that and I blamed myself. I thought of course she was sick but she could have survived had I not subjected her to defending me against accusers’ everyday.
I was so young when this happened; I do not know who exactly started that & what made them start that. I had no clue what boys were about yet I had to endure that. It killed me inside, my self-esteem died, i did not see any good in me and I ran away because I couldn't handle being the village celebrity of marriage wrecking.
But God...
Some of you reading this now have had the devil himself plan evil against you, formed stuff against you that looked so true and so believable and you wonder what you have done wrong. Yes the enemy can build a mould again you until it becomes real.
Can I tell you something; the devil is after one thing about you-your seed, which seed of greatness that God has placed in you. Therefore the devil fights it even before you recognise and know about it yourself. He tries to kill it before you recognize it. He tried killing Jesus and Moses and the others in the Bible.
Maybe you do not even see the greatness in you as yet,so yes: it is the devil's duty to make sure that you stay in the dark and that you never find out what you are capable of and let alone know who you really are.
Today that little girl the devil had declared that she will die young is still alive -now a lawyer by the way, an author, a worshiper(just to mention a few) and God told me 'baby girl I have not even started yet!'
One thing I know about me is that I INTIMIDATE THE HELL OUT OF THE DEVIL, he doesn't sleep because of me and he works overtime to try to eliminate me. Infact sometimes I tell the devil please give your agents work,whatever it is they try to manufacture to slander my name, demote me or try to make me look like I am a nobody-let them do all of that-how then will God be glorified if they don't because when it's all said and done-I WIN,DEVIL YOU LOOSE!!
Listen, the devil can never stop the plan of God upon your life. Maybe you are even still going through these trying trials; God shall preserve you, God shall keep you and God is going to use your life to show off His glory.
You are unkillable; you are too much, you are something, you are somebody and you are greatness!
So get up, dust yourself off, fix your crown and try life again...
Xoxo
Trish Waboraro is an inspirational writer and an author of four books; Worship Leader Manual Vol I and Worship Leader Manual Vol II which speaks on the spiritual and practical aspects of worship; Broken, which speaks on the issues of life and brokenness through life issues and challenges and Her Articles, a book that covers different issues of societal concern via the spiritual lenses.
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